Shadow of a Daughter's Pain

My mother told me today that her mother had passed away in Malaysia some time ago. Her brother had attempted to contact my mother. He apparently tried to get our Canadian contact information through some extended family members connected through my father's side but was unable to do so. The situation is still under investigation. My mother is, understanably, very upset. I returned home from the studio around 3am the morning of Feb. 11 and decided to wash some dishes. They were mostly glasses I brought back from the studio. My mother was deprived of the opportunity to see off either of her parents. I've found a way to blame myself. I get blamed for most stuff that doesn't go well anyway.